‘Sorry, I don’t like looking at you. You make me really sick.”

Words I keep repeating. A friend said it with gym. She saw my scars for the first time and that was all she said. Hate myself. 

Hey

Long time ago, I’m sorry. Well, alright. It is going really, really bad. My mind drives me insane. It’s killing me slowly and I don’t even care anymore. I want to die, every little piece of me wants to die. Except for my heart. I’ve tried suicide twice in the time I was offline. No one really knows about that, so yeah. Pills and cut. The first one was very serious and I’ve been very sick of the overdose, but it didn’t kill me. The second was a hopeless try to end it all, but the scars only made me very dizzy. I hate myself. It really feels like I failed. I want to die, I really, really want to end it all. The help I used to have stopped now, because no one takes me serious enough to really help me. And now I’m gone. Gone from the inside. There’s only my body and my smile, that’s it. I’m gone. No, I wish I was. 

Will someone please send me a message

I have filled in another e-mail address, and I want to know if it works :)

Anonymous asked: You're amazing. Things may seem bad now but they will get better. No matter how hard to believe that is, they will. Don't ever let someones opinion or something that happens get you down, because you're phenomenal. You're perfect.

Thank you, It’s hard to believe. People are so nice, but I just can’t love myself anymore.

Anonymous asked: you're strong. that's what makes you beautiful. believe me, you really are!

Thank you, that’s all I can say now.